I ascribe the status of Woman/Female which leads me to the status of Sister, Daughter, Niece, and used to be Granddaughter when my Grandparents were alive. I am also called Caucasion, but i like to refer to it as an American pure breed Mutt. I have bloodlines coming from all around the globe. These were conferred upon me by virtue of my birth many years ago!!
As a woman i have the roll in my culture to be attractive by having a fit body and wearing clothes that show it. Conduct myself as if i know what i'm doing confidently. Don't speak out too much, or be too wild.
I have the rolls as a caucation too but im not sure exactly what those are yet. Perhaps act arrogantly.
I have achieved the status of Mother which is my personal favorite! Next would be Girlfriend. I have also achieved the high and mighty status of Divorced and Single Mother that go hand in hand. I have achieved student hood once again as well as friend and coach.
As a mother I expect myself to be there for my children as much as possible, and at the same time i expect myself to provide for my children. This creates conflict because while i am with my children i am thinking of how to provide for their needs and while i am working i am thinking of how i need and want to be there for my children.
As a single mother there are many role conflicts because i have to be all roles of a father and man around the house as well as the mother and woman.
I have a boyfriend and this sometimes conflicts with my role as a single mother because while i want to go on a date with my boyfriend, i need to stay home with my children.
I do my best to resolve these conflicts by managing my time the best i can and being present when i am doing something so that i am not wasting precious time. I also go to a counselor once a week that helps me to sort out my decisions and how they are affecting myself, my life and everyone in it.
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